I'm not sure how this happens to me, but time seems to slip away. I haven't written a blog post in 2 weeks. Eeek!!!! I am doing other writing, but sheesh. Ridiculous. You would think not working would lend itself to developing a better schedule. Not always true. Because I have so much time, then I tend to waste it. But I am tweaking it, always adjusting to find the balance.
I figured something out today. Sometimes it takes me awhile. I've been job searching and worried about what skills I don't have or if I can get a job that makes more than minimum wage, wishing I had a better career path, a profession. All those nasty little thoughts that come up when you are actively making things happen.
And then I realized something. I am a writer. It is the thing I live for, the thing that sometimes keeps me up at night and the thing I must do lest I go crazy. So, everything in my life is in support of that. Even my job. If I end up working part-time to pay my bills, so I can write in the other part-time, then so be it.
I have been playing small. Pretending I'm not something I am. I have stories burning inside me and I have to get them out. I have things to say that people need to hear. And no one can write the stories that I can. As Neil Gaiman says, (loosely paraphrased), "there are better, smarter writers out there, but none that can write a Neil Gaiman story like I can". I love that. No one can write the stories I need to write. So I continue on.
A few weeks ago my brother "encouraged" me to spend 15 minutes a day working on my novel. That's it. Not 4 hours, not even 2 hours. Though I haven't spent 15 minutes every day, I have been doing this more often than not. Guess what? I now have 5,300 words towards my book I did not have two weeks ago. My target word count is 80,000, so I still have a journey ahead of me. But that's okay.
I most often write this story at night. It seems to be appropriate as I want it to be scary. I like to sit down and see what the story wants to tell me. And, in that 15 minutes, I almost always come up with 500-700 words to keep the story going. Are they good words, perfect words? Nope. Will I have to edit? Oh yea. But all the best writers, at least the ones I love the most, say it comes down to this: getting your ass in the chair and writing. Every day. Inspiration or not.