What to do when you can't sleep? Walk down to the public dock, enjoy the cool breeze off the river and hope you don't fall in. Because honestly, there's no one there to save me if I do. Luckily, that did not happen. So here I am writing about the "best things" from today.
Morning. Where do I start? I spent the morning at home, meditated, did yoga, wrote morning pages, took a long walk, found a house I love, watched the hot construction workers replacing some deck beams next door. Objectifying? Absolutely. Nothing wrong with a healthy appreciation for some toned men with their shirts off. It was a HOT one today.
Afternoon. Uber can't seem to get their act together. I had the "opportunity" to give my "Partner Support Specialist", Patrick, a Lyft ride this afternoon so he could get me the $500 bonus because the "system" was having technical difficulties. I think he just wanted an excuse to see me again. I am pretty awesome....and yes, I am feeling a little sassy tonight. I gave a few other Lyft rides here and there while enjoying the A/C in the basement at my actual home.
Evening. Tonight I had the great pleasure of having dinner with John & Lois (and Tony), dear friends whom (who?) I love a lot. Lois made Chicken Parmagiana, pasta, salad and a delicious chocolate zucchini cake. We talked about family and travel, shared cocktails and coffee and got caught up on life. I promised it would not be another 5 or 6 or 10 years until we saw each other again. There seems to be a lot of that going around. Reconnecting with people. And it's good, all good. The moon tonight is so beautiful, it puts me in a very romantic mood. Now...if I only had someone to share it with....
Sometimes I feel like I have all this love to give. Well, not sometimes, all the time. I'm not always very good about getting it out there, I'm definitely better with words than I am talking half the time. I don't know, I've felt something shift in the last few weeks or so, maybe even the last month. And I'm talking personally now. Maybe I'm not ready to "settle down", and maybe I don't have to be. But I think I am ready for the greatest adventure in my life....love. Not just any love, but a true love. I am a master at being alone...Malcolm Gladwell says it takes 10,000 hours to master something. I've got being alone down, maybe a little bit too much. And I'm probably going to look at this tomorrow and think "why in the hell did I write that?" but hey, it is my blog. I have learned there is something freeing about being completely honest and vulnerable about what you want. So that's it. I'm publicly telling the world and Universe at large that I am open. Open to love and open to romance. Who doesn't want the adventure of a great love story? I most definitely do.