I have so much on my mind I don't even know where to start. And let me say these are my OPINIONS. Facebook is not the best option first thing in the morning, especially with riots going on and another kid bringing a gun to school to do some damage. I don't like this. Any of it. But what I don't like more is a lot of people using social media to post this or that article to support whatever their point-of-view is, and a lot of people talking about a situation they are not directly involved in. I don't think "Just obey the cops" is gonna cut it any more. It's fine when it's someone else, but what about when it's you? And guns? I don't like guns. Guns are created for only one reason, and that is to kill things. They may for a moment protect life, but that is not what they were created for. Think about it. A weapon solely designed to take the life of another living thing. It kind of grosses me out even typing these words. Now, that is not to say I don't like people with guns nor am I going to go crazy about abolishing guns. But personally, they turn my stomach and I will never own one.
The only time I have ever wanted to "hurt" anyone is when I was out of sync with me. It had nothing to do with anyone else. I did not value myself enough NOT to hurt someone else. With me, it's mostly with words, my weapon of choice. So now, I have learned to love me. And as I have, my judgment of others becomes less and my compassion becomes more. I don't need to hurt anyone to prove my worth. I already know my own worth. And so I do my best to use my words to share my experiences, what I have learned on this journey of life.
You start with you and it spreads from there. This is the only way we are going to stop this shit. And it is shit. Do you think the Creator enjoys us constantly battling and fighting out our temper tantrums with weapons, killing each other and hurting each other over and over again? Someone or, in this case, a lot of someones, need to get skin in the game and stand up and stop it. And we are. There are those who refuse to tolerate cruelty and unkindness in any form. I do my best to weed it out in me, and not put up with it in others. If that makes me unpopular, so be it. I read comment after comment after comment of the blame game and it turns my stomach. We need to get beyond Democrat vs. Republican, gay vs. straight, black vs. white, men vs. women...you get the point? We HAVE to take responsibility for our own actions. If you teach hate any any level, that is not okay, towards ANYONE. There's an old Cherokee quote that goes like this:
Whatever you feed, wins. If you feed yourself on a steady diet of things like fear, jealousy, inadequacy, you cannot help but be that. Garbage in, garbage out. But, if you instead choose to feed yourself with the beauty of life, that comes out too. The Bible says that, and I am sure other sacred religious texts do as well. Feed yourself love, joy, humility, kindness. This is the only way we end this.
Now I'm starting to get angry. Starting to get upset at our ridiculous infighting as a human race. There is so much beauty to be found in the diversity of our world. It makes me sad that it is not safe for me to visit the Middle East. I would love to experience their culture. It makes me sad we think so little of life that we determine value based on gender, race, sexuality, religion...the list goes on and on. One single quality defining a life. Do you know what that is called? Objectification. And once that sets in, violence is sure to follow because we have removed the humanity and so see that person as "other" not like. A separation, and so violence comes easier. I didn't come up with that, someone else did. We use God as a bludgeoning tool against those who are not the same as us over and over again. If you think about it, does that even make sense? No. Yes, it has been going on since the dawn of time. But that does not mean we just need to sit back and let it continue. I'm sick of it.
Unfortunately those in power have been consistently shown to be abusers of it. Not always, but fairly consistently. So, one might think it okay for now because it is not directly affecting you. But when this comes directly to your doorstep, how are you going to handle it? How will you teach your children to regard others? Stop being so afraid of what you don't understand. We are still so infantile as a race that often, instead of trying to learn, we want to squash something or someone because it's different or makes us uncomfortable. We, as a human race, cannot live like this anymore. I have learned to value all life, even if I don't understand it. We need to get back to reverence for life. And sure, there are people I don't like, or care to be around. But maybe, just maybe, they are mirroring something to me I don't want to see in myself. And so when we try to eradicate that, we are really trying to eradicate that in ourselves which we cannot accept.
So I say embrace the dark and the light. The dark can only be changed by illumination, bringing it out into the light and loving that piece. Every person that is acting out has a dark part of themselves that is crying to be heard. Are they handling it right? Probably not. But maybe that's the only way they know how, and maybe they feel like they have no choice. But there is always another choice. Seek to understand. Find yourself in others. Listen to learn, not reply or prove a point. Don't retreat behind your walls of smug judgment. Cultivate compassion. Chances are, there will come a day when you will need it.