Create That Shit.

True to my word, here I am again.  Just finished morning pages, and getting ready for my shift at Pier 1.  Working part-time is awesome!  A few weeks ago I decided I had been thinking about this job thing all wrong.  I worked for a lot of years, 25 to be exact, full-time.  I also worked other part-time jobs while working full-time, and then went to school full-time while also working full-time and obtained my four-year degree.  Phew!  That is a lot of working.  For other people.  But now, I have switched it up.  My career, my job is writing.  And creativity.  So whatever "workaday" job I have will be in support of that. 

I intend to work enough to pay my bills, build my savings back up and payoff my debt I accrued from traveling.  I am creating a life I love, on my own terms.  The bulk of the work I do now is work no one ever sees, my creative work.  People tell me "you're so creative" or "I'm just not creative".  I always say bollocks to that because everyone is creative to some degree.  

What you may not realize about creativity is it does not just happen.  It is not that some of us are most blessed with it than others.  It is that some of us decide to make it a priority.  I get up early every day and write 3 pages of gibberish first thing in the morning.  Not for anyone else, just me.  I am working through Julia Cameron's follow-up to the "Artist's Way", "Walking In This World".  I surround myself with people who are also creative, and who support me.  No time for negativity here.  I am reading 2 or 3 or even 4 books at a time, most of that non-fiction.  Current titles on my bookshelf are "True Irish Ghost Stories", "Living Beautifully with Uncertainty and Change" (Pema Chodron) and "Memories of Old Sellwood".  The last one is part of ongoing research I am doing for one of my books.

And then there are all the day-to-day things to focus on, like exercise, feeding yourself, keeping my space tidy.  If all those things are out of whack, then creating is impossible.  I also need a certain amount of time alone daily to recharge.  I do not like to be alone, but I do need a significant amount of alone time.  When I write, I go into a deep place within myself that no one else is in.  I have to, or I cannot create.  Creativity also spills over into a lot of different areas too.  I can play the guitar, write poetry and blog.  I even go to an open mic where I sometimes read.  I am also getting into photography.  The flow is always there, you just have to decide to jump in.  

It has taken me countless hours upon hours by myself to hone my craft, which is words, first and foremost.  When I do not honor this daily, my soul has a restless energy that does not abate until I create.  Just know that for every blog post you see, who knows how many hours might be behind it.  I have a deep, deep reservoir inside me that I can pull from.  So that is the difference, really.  I have made a very conscious effort to craft a life that supports my writing.  Am I gifted in it?  Probably.  These blog posts take me about 10-15 minutes to write, with very little editing.  But, I have to keep nurturing and growing it otherwise it will wither and die.  I spent a lot of years blocking my own creativity, without even realizing I was doing it.  Now, the river is flowing.  

So jump in!  If there is something you have been dreaming about, a secret, silent tug at your heart, FOLLOW IT!!!  We need people who see and express the beauty of life.  Julia Cameron says art "alchemizes the experiences of our life".  She's right!  The best stuff comes from the worst time.  Maybe if people opened up to their own creativity just a tiny bit, we wouldn't have all the problems we do.  Creatives are the innovators, and point the way to the next "evolution", if you will, of the human race.  We're like scouts, out there on the fringes, encouraging others to come because it is a wondrous, beautiful new world.  If you don't express what is in your soul, it will turn on you and become something ugly and distorted.  As Julia also says, we act out our dramas in life because we are not acting them out on the page or on the canvas.  So get to it.  Start creating.  But just know, once you step on the path, you will never be the same.