What would you do if you could do anything? I often like to ask people this question. And this is the question we get asked periodically at different times during our lives. Most of the time I never knew what to say. I would be envious of those who seemed to know exactly what they wanted from their life and marched after it. They knew what they would do, and they were doing it.
I never knew I could create my own life. For a long time I had no idea I actually could design my very own custom life. Sometimes you don't know what you don't know. I took things as they came to me, and lived a lot on auto-pilot. But all along, things were stirring. I remember watching the first Lord of the Rings movie in 2001, sitting in my cubicle thinking and knowing there had to be more but I had no idea what or how.
It is not for the faint of heart. From that point on, my life took me on an incredible journey. And now, through more than a few years of deep self-work and excavation, I am doing it. I am creating and designing a life I love. Filling it with people I love, and things I love, and finding out what my interests and passions are. I don't know if there is one true passion. I guess the thing I think about most is writing. That is the place where I go deep inside and lose myself. But I am sure interested in a bunch of other things, like photography, traveling, history, languages, music .
This life I have chosen is not easy. In fact, it's damn hard sometimes. Living with people, scrambling to come up with rent, patching together odd jobs. But I learned something. Well, a few things. 40 hours a week working for someone else does not leave me with the energy I need to create. And writing is that sweet spot, where my dreams touch the Earth. Now that I have found it, I am not about to give it up. So I do whatever is necessary to protect it and nurture it. Quite frankly, I don't want life to be "easy". I want to always be growing, learning, changing and evolving.
There is no retirement. I hope I'm still writing and traveling when I'm 90. I use that because that is how old my maternal grandmother is, and she just got her first cell phone. I think the myth of retirement is that, a myth. We wait and we wait and we wait and sometimes it pans out and sometimes it doesn't. I refuse to believe the best thing I can hope for is to work some job with great benefits and hope I have enough energy left to do things when I'm 65 or 70. Who knows if I'll make it that far, or my pension, 401k or Social Security will. I don't want to "retire". I intend to live a full, vibrant life. If I have learned anything, as cliche as it is, there are no guarantees.
GO!!! One of my very best friends frequently posts this on my Facebook status updates. And notice, it is an action word. So go!!! Go towards your dreams, whatever they are. Cultivate those ideas whispered in your dreams. Pay attention and say yes. I promise, you life will take a magical turn. But be warned, once you open that door and go, there is no going back.