Sometimes I'm a writer. And sometimes I'm not. Lately I haven't been. I've taken on some additional responsibilities at work and schedules have been changing and it is definitely a period of adjustment for me.
I haven't blogged in over a month. I don't blog to build a following or necessarily even to build content, though that is helpful in the online world. I do it because it is a way for me to communicate things that I am feeling and I am thinking and for some reason I get all this restless, creative energy if it has been too long since I posted a blog or worked on my books and I have not been doing much of that lately.
There is a lot going on in the world. Personally, I know of several people who are going through spectacularly difficult personal crises. Obviously out in the world we have crises happening all the time and it seems as if things are speeding up.
The sky is white outside, covered in a thick haze of smoke from forest fires started by a lot of different things but most recently someone lighting off fireworks here in Oregon. Montana has something like 50+ of its' 60+ counties fighting a fire. We have the devastation of Hurricane Harvey and it sounds like we have another hurricane picking up force on the East Coast.
Sometimes, in fact most times, I want to stop this merry-go-round and get off. You have brave firefighters out there risking their lives to somehow contain these fires and more brave folks than I can imagine in Houston rushing to the aid of those in need. People dying to save others. I can only sit by mostly helpless and that frustrates me.
There are issues of race and politics, which are far too complex for me to dive into here. It seems we have a team of leaders in this country who cares little for taking care of their citizens and only for what their personal agendas encompass. Not a big surprise there. What I find that is interesting in reading through articles posted on various websites and the comments that come after is the viciousness of people towards each other, most they have never nor will ever meet.
So I think we need to take a pause. We have not done a very good job of taking care of each other in the times we are not in crisis. Nor do we do a particularly good job of taking care of the Earth we live on. I say "we" because "we" are all in this together. Right now, we are doing an exceptional job, in some ways, of coming to the aid of each other. But when there is not a crisis, how do we continue? Sometimes I feel so small because I am one person in a world of billions and what could I possibly do that would matter.
But here I am anyway. Because it's going to be we that save us. Not our elected leaders, not Jesus, not some other ancestor or spiritual figure, but it's us. And so I took a pause today to ask for rain for Montana and for Oregon. I apologized to the Earth because we haven't been good stewards. I don't want to complain about the heat and the smoke, though it's not pleasant, because there I was this afternoon sitting on the couch in this air-conditioned house watching the US Open. Some people have lost everything and are in that position right now and here I sit.
I don't know what all the answers are, and I don't know what exactly to do. So sometimes I write, if for nothing else, to release a bit of my frustration and to say to the world at large, even if no one reads it, that I am with you. I am not only praying for Houston, but finding foundations I think are worthy and donating to them because every little bit does help. I be aware of what I am doing, what I am saying, what I am thinking, in order not to cause any undue burden or pressure on anyone else. I definitely don't get it right all the time, but if I get it right more than not, I am okay with that.
So though whatever you think you are doing is small, it's not, so keep on doing it and find others that are doing those similar things, working to understand, to listen, to make our world a better place. Make an effort to get out and get to know people that are different than you in any kind of way, go have new experiences, go out into the world because that is what the world needs. People willing to go outside of themselves into new experiences and into uncertainty and who come alive because of it. That's where things get really fun. Donate, even if it's only $5 or $10. Because separately $5 or $10 each may not seem like much, but a million of us, well, together we can do a lot of good.
This world is big, wide, magical place full of incredible human beings and it is a gift and an adventure we have been given not just to consume but to live in harmony with. I don't know what's got into me but something has. But this is me and part of who I am. And this is the best way I know to express myself. There. Now I feel at least a little bit better.
P.S. And the gentleman whose quote I shared above? Mentored Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. One of my favorite quotes of all time.